Nehel

 Dear Fauzia and Tahir

I’m still unclear on what took place this weekend. But I’m at peace with not knowing right now. I’m curious, but not with a sense of urgency but rather a peaceful space, as if I’m a host awaiting a welcomed visitor…. 

From feeling unsettled, overstimulated and restless on the first day… I’ve now pulled back my energies with a re-established desire to just trust the process, the universe, God…. To allow what’s meant to unfold in its divine timing… but the experience has left a profound impact. One of deep trust and for that i am utterly at awe and grateful.

Perhaps that’s what has shifted. My sense of urgency has soothed, and my trust in a higher being for things beyond my control to allow to unfold. 

Yesterday was the first night that I slept well, with vivid dreams of people from my past…. I don’t know the meaning…. And as much as I’d like to puzzle the pieces together and find meaning of the dreams…. It’s likely a futile effort to find an answer yet again that I may never get by thinking of…. So for now I allow it to be…. To be brave enough to see it, and allow the meaning of it to unfold. 

And I’ll definitely be keen to join again. Thank you for holding us in presence and hope Fauzia feels better (hoping I’m not the one that passed it on) 🙏🏼